Reflection

So college was not at all what I expected it to be. And I had no idea what to expect in the first place. I have discovered that I have absolutely atrocious study skills. Somehow I never needed to study to much in high school and I managed just fine with 3.5 or higher.
I assumed that the same strategy would work in college as well and was horribly mistaken. In retrospect, sitting out a year may have been good for me. I also seem to have a problem with self-motivation and guilt. I lack the drive to do well until the last minute and then it's too late. Then I feel bad about not doing my work, and feeling bad makes me unproductive. It's a vicious cycle.
However, I am not posting this for sympathies or to have a pity-party. I am writing it as a reflective thing. Maybe it'll help me this summer and next semester. Now that I am aware of my weaknesses and study issues, I know what needs to be done. In short my struggle and barely surviving has pushed me to super-succeed this summer and next semester.